I got drunk last night.
First time in a long time.
Didn't mean to. I was out with the Koreans at my school for a trip away.
I don't mind sipping a little soju or bekseju to be polite at the table when people toast or want to pour me a drink. More often than not I just have water or Sprite poured.
Not sure what happened last night but a couple of sips here and there and I started to feel the buzz again. A few more sips and I was happy. Then before I knew it had pounded a couple of bottles of soju and drank several mugs of beer.
I ended up on the beach with my co-teacher and my missus pounding beer after beer. I figured that if I had broken the no drinking rule I might as well drink for all I was worth since it wouldn't be happening again.
Not sure where another four teachers came from (including Mr Han) but I think they were sent to rescue my co-t from me (even though it was her idea) she wasn't having any of it and wanted to stay up until sunrise. We eventually gave in around 330am where we ended up at the wrong hotel.
So how do I feel about it.
I'm sad that I broke my sobriety. I know that I am not going to start drinking again, I will have to completely refuse all alcohol from now on to make sure that doesnt happen again. The hangover today wasn't worth the effort I put into getting it in the first place.
I have no off switch.