I was cut up about it for a long time. His parents were nervous wrecks from that day on. I hated him for doing what he did. Suicide is the easy way out. Face your demons, be strong, and think of others.
Is there any chance that you could top yourself, please ? It would bring unconfined delight to many here.
Apologising simply doesn't cut it.
Early self termination would be a much more sincere gesture. Make sure you have the GoPro running.