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    Quote Originally Posted by Wally Dorian Raffles
    cheers again for all of the advice. i really appreciate it and have been trying to take it in.

    i have been dealing with depression for 17 years now. but i have always had a glimmer of hope. not anymore.

    i finally understand things. i understand that the glimmer of hope i had in the past was because i was still dissociating from reality by imagining the life i wish that i had with her. i started this 20 years ago when there was still a chance of getting her back but it has never really stopped. i still do it now, but not as deep. each time i catch myself doing it i am overwhelmed with the fact that it was 20 YEARS AGO. when i understand what i am doing i get extremely upset and just cannot believe that i have spent 20 years so far from reality ....

    along with understanding i have been so distant from reality i can also see all of the things i have either lost, or fucked up - including myself. i am totally fucked up. i was bright, ambitious and motivated for most of my life - but not anymore. my mind is not waht it used to be after so many years of self abuse. my body either. and there is a trail of destruction behind me which has left me broke and very alone.

    i went into a store to buy a boxcutter on saturday. i stood in line and waited to buy it. in the end i put it back on the shelf and walked out - but only because i had to stand in line, otherwise i would have purchased it without doubt. i have been thinking about buying it for weeks. the first time i went to but it the store did not sell them ... now i know which store does. its only a matter of time i feel. just have zero fight or zero hope...
    Log off the forum and get some professional help, Wally.

    Nobody here is qualified to help no matter how much they may want to and anyone reading this is by that fact alone becoming complicit in your plans and that's quite shitty.

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    ^You're right Ant, but Wally has at least reached out to us for now.

    Ignoring him and his pain is not an option.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Agent_Smith
    You're right Ant, but Wally has at least reached out to us for now.

    Ignoring him and his pain is not an option.
    True, he clearly needs help, I don't know what the answer is but nothing anyone is saying has worked and now seems intent on involving others with his plans.

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    Get a pet or two, while you're at it.

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    Quote Originally Posted by AntRobertson View Post
    Log off the forum and get some professional help, Wally.

    Nobody here is qualified to help no matter how much they may want to and anyone reading this is by that fact alone becoming complicit in your plans and that's quite shitty.
    Sadly yes. There is a certain other person who has the same problem which a thousand posts have not helped.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Wally Dorian Raffles View Post
    i am overwhelmed with the fact that it was 20 YEARS AGO. when i understand what i am doing i get extremely upset and just cannot believe that i have spent 20 years so far from reality ....
    Just imagine 20 years from now, looking back, how good you would feel knowing you beat this dark period of your life.

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    Quote Originally Posted by AntRobertson View Post
    Nobody here is qualified to help no matter how much they may want to and anyone reading this is by that fact alone becoming complicit in your plans and that's quite shitty
    ...yep...I wonder how many pages of helpful advice are required before folks realize Wally's not taking much on board no matter the intense offerings of goodwill, thoughtful suggestions and generally supportive advice. His last post had a dark hint of self-harm...why? What more does he want from posters here that hasn't already been said?
    Majestically enthroned amid the vulgar herd

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    l really appreciate all of the comments and support.

    l know it is not the best place to post this. believe me, i have tried the avenues people have suggested. i am getting professional help. it is the only help i can afford. other avenues are available but way out of my budget. the help i got back in australia was not much different than i am getting now. at the end of the day i do think its all too late anyway.

    the posts and pms are helping me. i know my negative replies make you think they are not. i would be lying if i said that reading good advice makes me suddenly feel like fighting more - but it does help me a little. just knowing that somebody cares helps. i may not know many posters her in person anymore, but i know a couple, and just knowing that somebody who knows me a little means more than from total strangers.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Wally Dorian Raffles View Post
    i may not know many posters her in person anymore, but i know a couple, and just knowing that somebody who knows me a little means more than from total strangers.
    ...well then...as previously suggested, PM those few you know for help and leave the rest of us out of your apparently endless personal problems...

    ...btw, posted with respect and concern...

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    Just don't click the thread TC. You fucking twat.

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    I had a burger outside a Great Yarmouth nightclub at about 3am that I still fantasize about.

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    Quote Originally Posted by armstrong View Post
    Just don't click the thread TC. You fucking twat.
    ...now you've introduced a diversion from Wally's extended explanation of his pain: selfish, very selfish...

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    Quote Originally Posted by armstrong View Post
    I had a bugger outside a Great Yarmouth nightclub at about 3am that I still fantasize about.
    Were you pitching or catching?

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    Quote Originally Posted by armstrong View Post
    I had a burger outside a Great Yarmouth nightclub at about 3am that I still fantasize about.
    I had a woman who was half Dutch burgher and half Sri Lankan who was still pretty hot at age 42.

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    Quote Originally Posted by armstrong View Post
    Just don't click the thread TC. You fucking twat.
    Ditto.

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    Quote Originally Posted by Latindancer View Post
    Wally, it seems to me that you are having a valuable experience, and perhaps an existential crisis. All living beings and conditions are transient and this is what you are realizing. You appear to be looking for some sort of permanence but it is just not there.

    You need to chat with a Buddhist monk who sees your current experience for what it really is : potentially a valuable learning experience.
    You can fuck orf to. Not sure who talks more shite. You or geoff? FFS.

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    Quote Originally Posted by tomcat View Post
    ...well then...as previously suggested, PM those few you know for help and leave the rest of us out of your apparently endless personal problems...

    ...btw, posted with respect and concern...
    You and prancer should get together and go bowling. Both a.pair of twats with no real sound advice to offer the bloke. Nobodys twisting you 2 coonts arms to read this thread. Why not just skip straight to the im a fudge packer thread or the porridge bowl throwing page and shut the fuk up. Horrible pair of coonts.
    Posted with respect and concern eh. Thats just takin the piss innit. Wankers

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    Quote Originally Posted by beerlaodrinker View Post
    You can fuck orf to. Not sure who talks more shite. You or geoff? FFS.
    He is a total bozo. He abused his wife until she left and currently he is trying to start a fight with Ant...

    ...Teak Door Fight Club

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    Quote Originally Posted by Edmond View Post
    Get a pet or two, while you're at it.

    Or ganja, if one cannot secure a pet.

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    Quote Originally Posted by beerlaodrinker View Post
    You and prancer should get together and go bowling. Both a.pair of twats with no real sound advice to offer the bloke. Nobodys twisting you 2 coonts arms to read this thread. Why not just skip straight to the im a fudge packer thread or the porridge bowl throwing page and shut the fuk up. Horrible pair of coonts.
    Posted with respect and concern eh. Thats just takin the piss innit. Wankers

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    Wow. what a great thread about regrets. I don't think there is a Pearson out there that does not have them.
    Like everyone else I have them also , I was with Connie ever sense we were kids, were allays together, had flings with each other, fought , got back together. Everyone always thought we would get married.
    Then I went away to College, came back got a job, Met a very nice girl. Good family, good job Wall street type. Got married, bought into the respectable , success BS. We were married for 19 years , have a daughter.
    But it was Vanilla , no passion , I wanted more!! Got divorced.
    What a shit I was!!
    Now Married to a very nice Thai girl 11 years . Better than I deserve.
    But when ever I wave a romantic dream, for some reason It is always Connie , Don't know why? I suspect subconscious unresolved issues , Guilt? who knows what goes on in my head? I certainly don't. But it is always Connie.
    I always thought about looking up Connie, and perhaps it would be best to do, confront the reality rather than the fantasy that I have build up in my mind. Kill the dreams. But I am not sure I want to. Me an Connie are frozen in time, We are always young, always pure.

    The problem with regrets is that they do not reside in reality , perhaps a reality that existed them but no longer exists. It is a construct of reality, fantasy and wishes. Nice to play in , wallow in self pity or perceived former glory. But not real.
    Simply a construct.
    The only thing that is real is the present. learn from the past , look forward to the future and hope you are not as big a fuck up now as you were then.
    The sooner you fall behind, the more time you have to catch up.

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    [QUOTEOriginally Posted by Latindancer
    Wally, it seems to me that you are having a valuable experience, and perhaps an existential crisis. All living beings and conditions are transient and this is what you are realizing. You appear to be looking for some sort of permanence but it is just not there.

    You need to chat with a Buddhist monk who sees your current experience for what it really is : potentially a valuable learning experience.
    ————————

    You can fuck orf to. Not sure who talks more shite. You or geoff? FFS.[/QUOTE]

    In fairness as pukeworthy as the advice was I do think that LD was genuinely trying to offer advice.

    So if you’re reading this Wally, ignore that advice and make your way back from the temple.

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    I would like to point out that Buddhist monks are quite different in Japan than in Thailand. Worlds apart.

    The people who have criticized my saying this obviously have no real understanding of Buddhist psychology.

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    Quote Originally Posted by beerlaodrinker View Post
    You can fuck orf to. Not sure who talks more shite. You or geoff? FFS.
    Says the man who used to live in Laos for years but knows almost nothing of Buddhism except superficial things......but sits around and drinks beer. How profound.

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