xmass story enigma

let me freshen me glass first, i too am in a little shock with this tale..ok, first off this has nothing to do with xmass, it just happend,,,i consider myself open minded, i pass not too many judgements, but this was something that, well i,m not sure how to wrap my head around, so please do not shoot the messenger, but consider the story..
i was at a gay party, i,m not, but they like me, a bloke{?} turned up all the stereo type poofter shit on bla bla, anyway he was selling his ute i was in the market so i had a pretty good look at it and a y arn with him, i gotta say this bloke had on the little leather hat and chaps and all the shit, at the time i had an accident at work and had a cut on my wrist come forarm, and he was curious, long story short, he had on these leather collars on his wrists, i showed him my wound and fucke me dead he showed me his, this fella had scares on scares,,all i did was cut me wrist on a bit of barb, this bloke had used every thing!
so there i was off my face talking to a self mutilating rain bow warrior, thinking what the fuck? anyway i asked him if he was hanging around for a chrissy drink, and he says no he,s a recovering drunk, no problem to me i had a yarn he left..

maybe try again when you are sober

to where i left off, after he was gone, i found me missus and she filled me in to just who i was talking to,, now here is the part i struggle with , apparently even in the poofter circle this bloke was caonsidered strange, he was a cutter,his gig was young children,at first i was nauseated at the thought,then they said, learn the whole story, apparently every time this bloke got hte urge, he would cut himself,,bad. he loved kids but he would never put himself in the way of temtation, when he felt the urge, he would carve himself, to mthe point when the schoolyard massacre happened in bessilin, he castrated himself,
i am in no way sticking up for this bloke,i just found out he did what he finally wanted, he is now dead,and i am sad for that,
what a wrong place to be in, i am revulised by what i heard, but am in admiration for the way he dealt with his revultion
pc. this bloke NEVER dealt any child harm.. for him ther was never a happy xmass ..a true xmass tale ..rip