I suppose it was just time, we had 8 days off work and one thing about giving up is you need to have a break in routine, not to mention previous attempts have resulted in short temper and irritability, not conducive to the office environment.
After 3 nights of hammering it and smoking like a chimney I just decided that was it, enough is enough, time to give it away once and for all.
The first day wasn't too hard, I suppose i slept late and was well nicotined up from the previous late night.
The first night was hell.
I slept in fit's and starts having weird dreams and waking often, suddenly, going from fitful sleep to wide awake immediately, then drifting back into a state of half sleep with the most bizarre thoughts and images coming and going in my head. Tossing and turning all night.
I really don't remember that much of it except that it was WEIRD. I wish I had written it down the next day. I slept very little.
The next day was difficult. With no residual nicotine from the previous night my body was in full on nicotine demand mode. This is a powerful addiction and I was a smoker for 30 years, the last ten 30-40 a day. I was seriously addicted and the addiction was demanding it's needs be met.
It felt like every organ in my body was sending me a message, and that message was, 'just have a smoke and this pain and discomfort will go away', but my message back "this is a life or death situation" had more impact.
The hours seemed to go on for ever that second day. I caught myself making reflex actions to get a smoke but caught it in time.
That second night was as bad as the first except I was very tired but still couldn't sleep. The night horrors came and went. Cold sweats and hallucinations and again the bizarre thoughts and images. I dreamed I had smoked 3 cigarettes and was very disappointed but then I woke up and realized it was a dream. I was so relieved it was a dream I laughed out loud. (verified by my wife) Not much sleep again.
Easier the third day, the urges came in waves but the physical discomforts were less and it was easier to distract myself, still a little irritable.
The 3rd night was difficult to sleep but not so many nightmares and sweats.
After that the urges keep coming but less powerful and less often.
It's the 'triggers' that get you. Points where you would normally light up. Waiting for the missus to decide whether she wants those shoes. Stopping for a coffee. After a meal, walking to the shops, places and times you would routinely light up. I've found that once I DON'T a couple of times they become less powerful triggers, but I didn't realize how many of these triggers there were.
It was a very interesting and terrifying first 3 days, a wild ride I might even say. It's now day six and the first day in the office as a non smoker and a whole new range of triggers to watch out for.
I definitely feel good about myself for doing it. it was nice to turn down a smoke the other day "thanks, I don't smoke". Been 30 years since I said that.