Thread: Ever wanted to kill yourself?

Erm........you'd best have a word with danbo.

Age does funny things to a person.

When I was younger I often had moments where I was 'sick of it all'.
Happened fairly often, in fact.

Then I got older and realised that what I was wishing for was a lot closer than it was 10 years ago and the urge to speed up my demise certainly backed away.

Now I've alll but convinced myself I have lung cancer I use my impending demise to help me get through the days and weeks...

"Fuck I hate that corporate at Sai Mai, still I'll prolly be dead this time next week so it's not like I'll see out the contract!"

Unlike you scampy, I don't think I'll be waking up in an afterlife.
I'm quite happy knowing that this lot, for good or bad, is over and I'll never have to go to Immigration again!

I wonder if there is immigration up there?

Gentleman Scamp:

Your thread is worrying.

We can always talk with friends and family about things. Well, I hope we can.

But have you ever considered talking with a good psychologist and/or counseler?

Be my luck they'd be Thai!

Originally Posted by Milkman

Gentleman Scamp:

Your thread is worrying.

We can always talk with friends and family about things. Well, I hope we can.

But have you ever considered talking with a good psychologist and/or counseler?

That would involve talking about myself and I'm sick to death of doing that.

No mate, I just need to see where I am going... I need to be found by the right girl and I need an Apple Mac, then I think things will improve.

Psycologists just listen, once you leave the building you still have you brain in your skull and are back to square one.

Sometimes they perscribe drugs which I do not believe are the answer... If the problem is man made I don't see how the soloution can be, also they stop you getting a hard on.

^ OK, thanks.

Concern genuinly appreciated Milkman but I am not generally suicidal, I just want to pose the question, what really happens when you die?

It is beyond our comprehension I know, but anyone who says they have never thought about this subject is full of shit, and anyone who says they don't care probably is too.

There must be some of you who have your own opinion. (see signature)

Originally Posted by The Gentleman Scamp

Concern genuinly appreciated Milkman but I am not generally suicidal, I just want to pose the question, what really happens when you die?

It is beyond our comprehension I know....

I don't think humans are meant to know what happens, if anything happens.

what is Dan Brown

oh yes, do you want flowers or a donation to charity?

We all have our different believes, but I guess when it's done and over with we move on to another place.
Where that is and how it'll be there I really don't know?
I started thinking about it quite a lot since my father died seven months ago.

Sorry about your dad Likewise, and great name BTW.

It seems that most non-religious people find it too much hard work to think about it and dismiss it as irrelevant to the hear and now, but is it?

Life and death are connected in ways we refuse to see, and true - we may not be supposed to know what happens, purely for the reason that suicide would be rife if we did know.

I want to live a full life and die before I start wetting armchairs, but to not seek certain answers along the way seems a bit boring and pointless.

Spirituality should be a life long quest... I know a Canadian woman on Samui who died for a few minutes and came back and her story was very eye opening and explained a lot.

When she 'came back' she was no longer afraid of death but still wants to live and knows she should. Since it hapened some 30 years ago, she has never felt the need to turn to religion, give up smoking, sex or drinking or change her life in any way but to make it a full life.

She is also sane and lucid.

Interesting story.

I think that most of us are afraid of dying, since it's human to be afraid of the unknown. That's why some just prefer not to think about it. Sooner or later there comes a day though that death will be right in our face.
I never gave it any thought till my dad passing away.

Many times.

I still think about it now when I get that feeling that all we are doing is waiting to die and some sick fucker has played a evil joke and left me trapped teaching science in Thailand.

What can I say you draw your cards and make your choices.

- 33 years to go

Originally Posted by mrsquirrel

Many times.

I still think about it now when I get that feeling that all we are doing is waiting to die and some sick fucker has played a evil joke and left me trapped teaching science in Thailand.

What can I say you draw your cards and make your choices.

- 33 years to go

Good points, Squirrel.

I knw that were you joking but no one is really "trapped" anywhere.

I agree with drawing a deck and then making our choices.

Not so much as trapped but choices are limited and becoming more limited as time passes.

I have heard many personal accounts of 'echoes' from a past life, all from perfectly sane people.

A guy I work with had a toy gun when he was 6yrs old and started speaking fluent Vietnamese much to the concern of his father.

I still can't fihure out why I spoke Spanish in my sleep almost 10 yrs ago but the girl was too freaked out to sleep with me again, we remained friends though.

I feel no special pull towards Spain and would like to know what it was all about, understandably. I have always been drawn to Mexico but that is the case with a few countries.

Stuff like this happens and is dismissed by both Christians and athiests.

Perhaps I should go to Equador and visit a shamen and take one of those drugs that lets you communicate with the above, then erases your memory... If such a thing exists.

P.S. Note to Ice Maiden - I got cut off because my battery on my old phone is screwed, in fact I am surprised it even rang considering I am in China, I only switched the bastard on to retrieve a couple of numbers from my Thai SIM card. It's now plugged in so try again or PM me and I will give you my Chinese number.

Originally Posted by friscofrankie

Good post Milky. But I disagree. it is not the "funnel" that narrows but out perception of our options. AS we grwo older many of us choose not to take those chnaces, Look to security and The path of least resistance,
While stepping out of the rut you've worn on your accepted path and venturing forth towards some new goal, some new experience in life get's more difficult it is not something beyond our control. More a weakness in our nature that we tend to try less new things as we age.
The saying life begins at 40 is such crap. Life begins anew for each one fo us whenever we choose to make the changes that present new options. That "funnel," while very real for many, is self-imposed and definitely avoidable.

Great post Frankie.

For me this is the post of the month.

Originally Posted by The Gentleman Scamp

I have heard many personal accounts of 'echoes' from a past life, all from perfectly sane people.

A guy I work with had a toy gun when he was 6yrs old and started speaking fluent Vietnamese much to the concern of his father.

I still can't fihure out why I spoke Spanish in my sleep almost 10 yrs ago but the girl was too freaked out to sleep with me again, we remained friends though.

I feel no special pull towards Spain and would like to know what it was all about, understandably. I have always been drawn to Mexico but that is the case with a few countries.

Stuff like this happens and is dismissed by both Christians and athiests.

Perhaps I should go to Equador and visit a shamen and take one of those drugs that lets you communicate with the above, then erases your memory... If such a thing exists.

P.S. Note to Ice Maiden - I got cut off because my battery on my old phone is screwed, in fact I am surprised it even rang considering I am in China, I only switched the bastard on to retrieve a couple of numbers from my Thai SIM card. It's now plugged in so try again or PM me and I will give you my Chinese number.

When one of my ex-girlfriends was six years old, she was at her grandmother's place out in the Finnish archipelago. It was raining outside so she had to play inside. The local minister was there, and the three of them were playing cards at the kitchen table. All of a sudden ex-gf jumps down from her chair and walks out of the kitchen into the living room, and her granny's bookcase, proceeds to take out a 200-year-old bible printed in gothic letters, and starts reading out of it, reading 3 pages in a language that uses words nobody uses today. This was a one off event. She never did anything like it since. The funny thing is, it took her another two years to learn to read at school.

When famous Australian rich bastard Kerry Packer died for about 10 minutes 10 years or so ago, he made his infamous quote "I've been to the other side and there's fuckin' nothing there!"

Having died more permenently last year, I suppose he knows what's there for sure now.

I usedto be scared of death. Not saying I'm not now, but I'm perhaps more comfortable with it's inevitability. I tend to give more though to the how these days...

I also don't give an afterlife much thought once I began to accept no-one knows for sure what is there...

That doesn't mean I am too focused on the here-and-now only. Just not focused on something I can't really do much about.

I am inclined to think there is nothing there...but read once about a particular philosophy...I think one of the Buddhisms... in which your life is an energy that cannot be estinguished. It joins the cosmos and becomes one with it...so your energy just takes a different form. I kind of like the thought of that, even though it means no catching up with old friends and family in the hereafter...

Originally Posted by friscofrankie

Good post Milky. But I disagree. it is not the "funnel" that narrows but out perception of our options. AS we grwo older many of us choose not to take those chnaces, Look to security and The path of least resistance,
While stepping out of the rut you've worn on your accepted path and venturing forth towards some new goal, some new experience in life get's more difficult it is not something beyond our control. More a weakness in our nature that we tend to try less new things as we age.
The saying life begins at 40 is such crap. Life begins anew for each one fo us whenever we choose to make the changes that present new options. That "funnel," while very real for many, is self-imposed and definitely avoidable.

I may only be pretty young and lacking experience but I do agree with you Frisco!