Right. I've had enough.
Been boozing far too long now and it's crept into all aspects of my life.
Everything I do revolves around whether I can have a few drinks each evening. You may say, how do you know you have a problem?
Well here's the evidence:
I no longer train at the gym in the mornings cos I can't get up anymore and they told me I stank of booze, so I got too embarressed to go.
I had a seizure at work last month while doing a talk, I had been off my face the night before. I was unconcious 5 mins.
If I try and abstain I am irritable, tense and angry. Last time I tried to stop, I got up again and went out for booze at 2.37am, I had to find some dodgy karaoke bar and pay way too much for some bottles of warm Leo, but I still paid.
I can't accept morning work because I don't rise from my pit til well past 11am and need two hours to get going.
My flatmate has seen me drink every single night since I moved in on April 1st. I'm still offering excuses as to why I'm doing it. It's wearing thin I suspect.
And it's starting to not help me sleep. I'm rolling about in bed two hours before I drop off. And I'm sweating as well as I roll around.
I have never drank in the mornings, ever. I don't get the shakes. I have only ever drank beer and wine, recently it's been up to around 5-6 big bottles most nights. Which is not acceptable.
I hide all this from my mates at the boxing gym.
I hide all this from the guys at football.
I hide all this from girls I go out with.
I hide all this from work colleagues.
I hide the stink of my booze when I get up by running 4km and sweating it out as soon as I get up.
I'm physically fit enough to do that.
I think they are classic signs of me being dependant on the booze. As of today I'm getting off it.
This thread will be my diary.
Please I need positive comments and help. I imagine some of you will take the piss out of me but some may even identify with my predicament.